Yay, it’s time for the first Ace Diversity blog!
Ace Diversity is a blog series where I let other asexual people share their stories to show how diverse the asexual community is.
Today I am sharing the story of Sandra, 19 from Poland.
TW: sex, masturbation
 | Hi! My name is Sandra. I’m 19, currently using she/her pronouns (although I’m still questioning my gender identity). I’m from the most homophobic country in Europe, aka Poland ❤ |
How do I identify?
I identify as heteroromantic asexual, but it is that way because I have only ever felt romantic attraction towards men. For me personally, it’s really hard to distinguish between romantic and aesthetic attraction, that’s why I’m unsure If I have ever felt romantic attraction towards someone who is not a man.
Being ace
In my experience being ace is not feeling sexual attraction towards anyone, but as we know, asexuality is a spectrum, so it varies from person to person. I myself use the micro-label “aegosexual” which for me is getting arousal from watching hentai/reading it (porn disgusts me), having sexual fantasies, but it never involves me, I’m always a spectator “watching” an act while masturbating to just let go of sexual tension coming from libido.
Sex and libido
When it comes to sex, I would say I’m sex-neutral — I don’t care if it is a part of a relationship as long as there is not too much of it. It may have to do something with my extremely low libido, but there are asexual people with a high libido who have a similar view on sex, so it doesn’t really matter. I personally have had sex, and it’s not something I need to live happily.
Stereotypes
When it comes to stereotypes, I am breaking a lot of them, including ones about asexuals. I am not sex-repulsed, and I’m not aromantic (for some reason many people think ace people are also aro, which is true but only for part of our community). Maybe there are more that I have not heard of or cannot think of them right now.
Questioning my own sexuality
When I first heard of the term “asexual” a few months ago I was like “yay, a new term to learn about, so I can be more educated on people’s sexualities”. The more I read, the more it sounded like myself. I did more research and after all those “Am I ace?” quizzes, I have come to the realization that I may be asexual. Despite the signs being there for my whole life, I still had a weekly questioning session with myself thinking I was doing it all just for attention (yeah, whose? LMAO, nobody knew) or that maybe I was just straight because I had a boyfriend and had sex with him. Fortunately, I have joined different groups on Facebook for ace people and learned that not all aces are sex-repulsed and that my experience is completely valid. I’m not any less ace, just because I had sex, and It does not repulse me.
Coming out
My coming out was definitely a process. As much as I thought I didn’t really feel the need to come out, I kind of wanted to do it, so that people important to me could understand me and my actions better. I have decided to give subtle hints like changed icons in my IG bio to create the ace flag, send a Snapchat with the ace flag as a background. But the more I became certain of my asexuality, the more I wanted to come out even though I’m heteroromantic (I think). At first, I wanted to send them a PowerPoint with a voiceover (I saw this idea on one of the groups or on Pinterest, I’m not sure) but one night I just broke down and decided to Snapchat a bunch of messages to two people I trust. I know It doesn’t change anything for them, but I felt like I was a bit more vulnerable with someone (and if considering my trust issues, that’s a big event). It really felt awesome to be accepted because I can’t really depend on my parents for that. If I was lesbian, bi, pan, etc. It would be fine, but ace not because for them the idea of not needing sex and not feeling sexual attraction would be just a phase. I don’t understand why they have watched “Sex education” on Netflix, there was a bit about asexuals, but I feel like they did not pay attention to this specific segment ☹
Obvious signs
I have no idea why I have learned so late when the signs were there my whole life. Not having a celebrity crush and faking it to be accepted, not having a crush on a boy at school, and faking it again. To try to find if I was in love, I would write on the steamed glass door of our shower things like “I love [insert name]” to see which one looks best. Also seeing sex completely differently from other people, I just thought It was because I’m a very analytical woman, but it turns out I was ace all along ❤
Summary
I think the best summary is saying I’m much happier after finding my true self, and I encourage everyone to try to do it. Understanding yourself is a huge step in loving yourself and a game changer to why you may react to certain things/events in a specific way.
I’m sending lots of love to everyone ❤
First, I want to thank Sandra for sharing her story!
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